I’ve started going to therapy again in an effort to get a handle on my anxiety.
I go into a state of restless panic if the dishes aren’t put away. Clothing left on the floor will cause me to feel a heavy sense of impending doom, and God forbid if the bed isn’t made…That will just ruin my entire day. Right now, there is a drum kit stacked in the corner of the dining room that almost reaches the ceiling and every time I look at it I shudder and almost faint. My hypochondria, the political climate, big Hot Pink Hangover gigs, my general feelings on the state of humanity after a rough commute, or the angle in which I have placed my table setting can all play a role in the onset of anxiety. So, yeah, I have some issues I guess. Please feel free to share your own little neurosis or phobias in the comments so I don’t feel so alone. Maybe we can start a support group.
I have to be honest with you. This week I am Completely! Freaking! Out! For those of you who didn’t know, it’s the week of our CD Release Party- a.k.a. our biggest gig of the year. We have single-handedly organized this soiree, and its success or failure depends 100% on us. No pressure! I’ve been snorting my lavender nasal inhaler, drinking calming tea, and making some half-assed attempts at mindfulness exercises (that I basically just invented myself) but nothing seems to be working. I’ve managed to make myself sick with worry yet again. The only thing that will ease my nerves at this point, is when show day arrives, and I’m decorating the theater, putting out the champagne, donning my costume, and doing the sound check. I will have a feeling of calm come over me as I always do. At that point, we will have done what we can, and it will be up to you, our amazing fans, to decide how you want to spend your Saturday night- and your dollars. With so many choices available to you, we're always thrilled by the idea that some of you want to spend those things with us.
After the CD release party, we’ll be dropping a risqué new music video for the next single, heading out on some small regional tours, writing new material, & starting to record the next batch of songs (which you all have been very patient with!) For now, I just need to focus on not hyperventilating. Saturday’s show is about YOU! We just want to share the experience with our beloved Hotties! We’ll be unveiling some new material and a few fun little surprises. For those of you who keep coming back for more of the Hot Pink Hangover Show- you are the life blood of the band. As Freddie Mercury once said, "We belong to you."