#27 A Confession

Some of you have been curious about what I meant when I mentioned that the gigs of a couple weeks ago were a welcome morale boost. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE what I do in Hot Pink Hangover... but I'm not above a "bad day at the office."

A career in music for us has not looked like it does in the movies... We're not at the level where we're playing to packed houses, binge drinking with local influencers, or being chauffeured around in a luxurious motor coach. We're not living the high-life just yet!  It's more like, late nights in 2-star hotels after schlepping gear through rain, mud, and sometimes vomit. It's half-full dive bars (which do hold a special place in my heart) and hoping Vanna White will get us from point A to point B without hitting a deer or popping a gasket. Mixed in with all that are the enthusiastic fans who make this deal worth doing. I truly feel like we could be playing the biggest dump in the world, but if there were receptive people in the audience it wouldn't matter. The Hotties are what matter more than anything to us. We had the honor of opening up for Badflower about a year ago, right before they broke, and they were being brutally honest with us in the green room. They were going through a lot of the same things we're going through right now. The roller coaster ride that is rock and roll... But about a month later they were playing The Tonight Show, so patience and hard work does pay off for some. Badflower is an amazing band with kind and incredibly talented members. Their ability to create authentic experiences for their fans is a huge part of why they're so popular. They give you something to relate to and they're not afraid to pull back the curtain and let you in. 

 

Believe me, I'd love to hide in the green room eating bon-bons and drinking bubbly before & after every show. I am an introvert and the thought of doing or saying something absurd or insulting is terrifying for me and it takes a lot of self-talk and courage to propel me into "Mercy mode." Good thing Mary Mayhem is never far away, to corral me away from self inflicted humiliation or harm... I just need to remember to check my feet for toilet paper, check my teeth for lipstick and check my attitude at the door. 

The bottom line is that music is something I have tried to step away from many times and I just can't stop coming back to it. I get jealous every time I see a band performing that isn't mine. Each time I turn on the radio in my car, I hope that maybe a song I wrote will be playing. I step onto every stage imagining a licensing exec is sitting in the front row ready to make me a millionaire. Maybe I'm a glutton for punishment, or maybe we're about to cross the threshold into rock stardom...  Either way, I'm a born show-off and the spotlight is my favorite place to be, so I'm going to continue to push forward through the good, the bad, and the in between. Thanks for following the journey.

6 comments

  • Dustin k

    Dustin k Monticello.mn

    You rock!!!! Keep up the fight and never guve up on ur dreams!!

    You rock!!!! Keep up the fight and never guve up on ur dreams!!

  • peg

    peg NH

    That Amsterdam show with Badflower is the night Amy and I met you. Can't imagine how hard the journey is. You know, Josh Katz and the gang have spent plenty of days using the Wal-mart bathroom and eating at Denny's. It only takes one special moment to put you in the national spotlight. Always sending you positive thoughts. <3

    That Amsterdam show with Badflower is the night Amy and I met you. Can't imagine how hard the journey is. You know, Josh Katz and the gang have spent plenty of days using the Wal-mart bathroom and eating at Denny's. It only takes one special moment to put you in the national spotlight. Always sending you positive thoughts. <3

  • Hot Pink Hangover

    Hot Pink Hangover

    Thanks Dustin! Looking forward to the day you’re out in the audience! -Mercy Peg, I remember you fondly and am so appreciative that a year later you’re still following our little shit show! It means a lot. -Mercy

    Thanks Dustin! Looking forward to the day you’re out in the audience! -Mercy

    Peg, I remember you fondly and am so appreciative that a year later you’re still following our little shit show! It means a lot. -Mercy

  • Jamie Lallak

    Jamie Lallak

    Girl, you deserve the spotlight! You all do! I remember going out to that show with no idea who Badflower was and came to see you guys. I was jumping in the crowd, singing all the words and didn’t care who was staring at me (which indeed was happening haha) I stayed for a few songs but made it for you guys and was so glad I did!!! You guys will have your day... I just know it^_^

    Girl, you deserve the spotlight! You all do! I remember going out to that show with no idea who Badflower was and came to see you guys. I was jumping in the crowd, singing all the words and didn’t care who was staring at me (which indeed was happening haha) I stayed for a few songs but made it for you guys and was so glad I did!!! You guys will have your day... I just know it^_^

  • Jim

    Jim Austin, MN

    10-7-19 I heard your Twins song on KQ92 as I was rescuing my daughter's car from possible meltdown last week. Guys and my special girl...I instantly had to find out more about HPH! You know how to rock!!! Love the fusion of rock, metal, and do I dare say punk? The sound is so tight! The timing is spot-on! My god, the lyrics!!! The videos, they're spectacular!! And Mercy on vocals, I melted!!!! I can't get enough!!! Keep up the hard work, it will pay off! I know it will! I haven't had the pleasure of seeing you in concert yet, but I will, I promise!! Being in southern MN, you can't tune into KQ92 or 93X. So, you need a presence down here and fast! I am going to inquire a couple of radio stations down here to at least play a song or 2 to see what happens. You're the best that's come out of the Twin Cities in a long time!!! I respect your hard work and diligence, and you deserve to be rewarded!! Keep it real and rockin'!!! - Jim jimtrom@msn.com

    10-7-19
    I heard your Twins song on KQ92 as I was rescuing my daughter's car from possible meltdown last week.
    Guys and my special girl...I instantly had to find out more about HPH! You know how to rock!!! Love the fusion of rock, metal, and do I dare say punk? The sound is so tight! The timing is spot-on! My god, the lyrics!!! The videos, they're spectacular!! And Mercy on vocals, I melted!!!! I can't get enough!!! Keep up the hard work, it will pay off! I know it will! I haven't had the pleasure of seeing you in concert yet, but I will, I promise!! Being in southern MN, you can't tune into KQ92 or 93X. So, you need a presence down here and fast! I am going to inquire a couple of radio stations down here to at least play a song or 2 to see what happens.
    You're the best that's come out of the Twin Cities in a long time!!!
    I respect your hard work and diligence, and you deserve to be rewarded!!
    Keep it real and rockin'!!!

    - Jim
    jimtrom@msn.com

  • Hot Pink Hangover

    Hot Pink Hangover

    Jim! Thank you so much. This is quite the origin story of how you came upon our music- but I'm glad you did! Thanks for your kind words and your reassurance that good things are coming for us... I sure hope so! We can't wait to see you out at a show so we can meet you and thank you in person for your support. -Mercy D.

    Jim! Thank you so much. This is quite the origin story of how you came upon our music- but I'm glad you did! Thanks for your kind words and your reassurance that good things are coming for us... I sure hope so! We can't wait to see you out at a show so we can meet you and thank you in person for your support. -Mercy D.

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